When I look back at this short life of mine and remember the things and the people that made me laugh and smile it amazes me how all that can change so suddenly and so unexpectedly. I remember days where I knew how the end of the day was going to be. I knew the conversations and the interactions I would have later that evening. “They” tell me to look back and just smile. Sometimes I can do both, but at times I would rather do neither and I just try and look ahead. The one bad thing about looking ahead is that I don’t know if I am smiling. I want to though, and that is something to look forward to.
I freak out with life.