My Sleeve

I don’t think anyone has used this phrase to describe me, “He wears his heart on his sleeve.” At least not to me directly, but at times I feel as though I do because if I slightly stray from my “normal” behavior everyone notices.

I sometimes say that if I were to get another job I would just keep to myself as opposed to be being a people person because when I want to be alone with whatever is bothering me I can’t seem to hide it and then everyone worries about me and they want to help. I am grateful for the kindness but at times I just want to be alone with my thoughts and prayers.

When I was asked how I was doing today, my answer was totally honest and I didn’t even have to think about it. “I wish I was invisible today.”

It has been a busy day. I have been in and out of the office a lot, working on some new machines, but the walk from A to B was where invisibility would have been useful.

There was a silver lining, however.

During the preaching, Preacher says that he loves to be around people of like faith and people from church and I have grown to feel the same way. These past two weeks a few us have gotten together for dinner more times than usual and it has been a blessing for me.

I didn’t get to go to La Playa with Juan and Deedee today but as I was on my way to troubleshoot a laptop my Preacher called inviting me to join his family for lunch and the fellowship is just what I needed to get through the day.

Looking forward to church tonight.


  1. Rob

    I can relate …. But for the amount of money you get paid there .. come on Jay .. you got to work alittle .. cant be Googling all day .

    But yeah most of the times I just want to be left along but yet my phone rings and I just want to throw it up in the air, but I have no money for another phone so I dont do it . And if I dont answer sometimes they come over .. like ” hey I was calling you ” and my answer is ” yeah I know “

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