I don’t think anyone has used this phrase to describe me, “He wears his heart on his sleeve.” At least not to me directly, but at times I feel as though I do because if I slightly stray from my “normal” behavior everyone notices.
I sometimes say that if I were to get another job I would just keep to myself as opposed to be being a people person because when I want to be alone with whatever is bothering me I can’t seem to hide it and then everyone worries about me and they want to help. I am grateful for the kindness but at times I just want to be alone with my thoughts and prayers.
When I was asked how I was doing today, my answer was totally honest and I didn’t even have to think about it. “I wish I was invisible today.”
It has been a busy day. I have been in and out of the office a lot, working on some new machines, but the walk from A to B was where invisibility would have been useful.
There was a silver lining, however.
During the preaching, Preacher says that he loves to be around people of like faith and people from church and I have grown to feel the same way. These past two weeks a few us have gotten together for dinner more times than usual and it has been a blessing for me.
I didn’t get to go to La Playa with Juan and Deedee today but as I was on my way to troubleshoot a laptop my Preacher called inviting me to join his family for lunch and the fellowship is just what I needed to get through the day.
Looking forward to church tonight.